i was looking at my blog just now, and I think it looks really ugly.
the pink reminds me of pepto bismol
the pictures are in an awkward arrangment
and it just screams of an overall "bleh"
the only cool part is the lollipop
(and even that looks kind of bad because it probably tastes like black jelly beans)

so i'm sorry to the 2 people a month who accidentally click on my blog and have to see this mess

I'm in my room right now... waiting for Isabel to get off of the phone with her boyfriend. Here's a snippet of what I have to hear:

"Imagine if the keyboard at Guitar Center was edible?? Everyone would, like, get AIDS to the max because everyone has played on that keyboard" - Isabel

Yeah, not even kidding. I'm not teasing though. It's pretty cute to see a 16 year old girl in "love". Although my relationship at 16 was laughable at best, my feelings were sincere at the time - so I guess I can see that in her.

::now they're talking about how many calories could be in two waffles::

So... summer break has started! and I can't wait to do absolutely nothing. I'm planning some stuff, but who knows if it'll come to pass. Some things that definitely will happen, though, are:

• road trip with le Izzy and el hermano. We'll be going to San Antonio, Dallas, UNT, and Austin in 5 days. Victor was really rude this morning when we were planning it. He was saying how he wanted to stay in San Marcos, I said I don't want to, so he replied with an "Oh, well I don't think you have much of a say so anyways". Oh rlly? its my car.
• going to take two classes during summer I - managerial finance and small business management. supposedly one is hard and the other is uber easy so it'll balance into two "moderate"s. i'm not looking forward to it, but I want to learn a new language next year so I'm freeing up any space to take either French or Chinese.
• summer II will be either slacking or working part-time
• my birthday is coming up :) I'll be turning 21 in August. I decided that I would like to drive up and find an Indian or Thai restaurant to celebrate at. I also wouldn't mind smoking from a hookah or having a good cigar. I was never really fond of alcohol (so don't expect any drunk myspace pictures from this one), but I'll probably have a nice drink at the Indian place while I chew on my naan <3
  
• Oh, and my mom wants to rent a room on the island at some point. That'll be cool.

That's about it. Just plain old Sylvia having a lazy hazy crazy summer. I know it's not elaborate but I've always been content with the simple things.

Dear Finals Week,

You suck

Why can't you be cooler - like your cousin, Spring Break?

He is uber awesome

But I am glad you didn't get the swine flu

Because if not I would have had to put up with you even longer



Warm wishes,
Sylvia

pat on the back, sylvia. pat on the back

They interviewed me for the California position yesterday, and to make a long story short she said that it was up to me.

...

I turned it down

i wrote them an e-mail this morning pretty much saying "thanks, but no thanks"

and

I feel really good about it.

I'd write more but I want to keep some things to myself, you know?

Anyways, so I know my past posts have pretty much only been about the internship.
Sorry to bore you all.
But now it's all behind me.
And I get to bore you guys with all new things.

at least pretend to sound interested

i want off already

"Hola Sylvia,

Unfortunately the position was cancelled. Therefore we are not hiring a student. You have a great resume and you did a wonderful interview, you were my first choice. I hope you receive another offer soon.

Best regards,

Kamir"

I got this e-mail from the USDA on Tuesday. After 2 weeks of mind games, I guess I was right. It looks like I won't be interning in DC after all. I was really sad when I found out about this, and I just wanted to go home and have a good cry. But I didn't. I stayed at school and forced myself to do homework so that I wouldn't wallow.

I e-mailed the organization who sets up the internship interviews, and I asked them if there were any other openings they'd consider me for...

Some lady from San Antonio called me back yesterday. She said that she wants me to interview for an internship position with Sodexo. Apparently, they're the biggest food producer in the nation and they're the ones who feed hospitals and universities (bleh... i always thought that food was gross).

They have three positions available. One would be at a hospital in Modesto, California (about 1 1/2 hours from San Francisco) and the other two are at univeristies in Minnesota. Obviously, I said I was more interested in the California position but I wouldn't mind interviewing for any of the three.

i don't know. this whole summer-planning crap has been a roller coaster for me. I'm not as excited with these positions are I was with the DC one. I mean, living in California would be cool. But i don't know...
Why can't I just be a normal 20 year old girl and not give a damn?

I want to move away from Brownsville (yet the purpose and location are unknown)
I want to gain experience (in a field that I mostly don't like)
I want to be typical (but I love Jesus too much)

Anyways, I still have my plan B available. I signed up for that nasty Business Law II class, so I can graduate in December if I so choose.

God, give me clarity. Give me wisdon. Give me You.

Dude

I can't graduate in December...

Alright, let's start from the beginning.

Remember that whole DC internship thing? Well, it's been almost two weeks since they interviewed me and I still haven't heard from them, so I guess it's safe to say I didn't get it. You'd think that the USDA would at least send an "I'm sorry. you suck. maybe next time?" e-mail. Geez

Anyways, going on the big chance that I probably didn't get it, I referred to Plan B and signed up for summer classes. I need 27 hours to go, so I would take 9 in the summer and 18 in the fall.
Works out perfect, right?

Wrong

One class that I was planning on taking isn't being offered in the summer OR the fall. I could take another class instead but I effin' hate that class.
Dude, seriously, that class is gonna suck. It's Business Law II. You can start cringing now.

So what to do? What to do?
Do I wait and graduate in May with an easier course load?
or
Do I suck it up and just take the class?

I guess it all boils down to one question: "How badly do I want to graduate already?"

And to be honest, I don't know.

this makes me elated

thinking

I have a feeling I didn't get the internship.

hmm

i don't know how I know this, but I just have a gut feeling.

They still haven't e-mailed me,

and I'm pretty sure she said she'd reach me on Monday.

Oh well.