pat on the back, sylvia. pat on the back

They interviewed me for the California position yesterday, and to make a long story short she said that it was up to me.

...

I turned it down

i wrote them an e-mail this morning pretty much saying "thanks, but no thanks"

and

I feel really good about it.

I'd write more but I want to keep some things to myself, you know?

Anyways, so I know my past posts have pretty much only been about the internship.
Sorry to bore you all.
But now it's all behind me.
And I get to bore you guys with all new things.

at least pretend to sound interested

i want off already

"Hola Sylvia,

Unfortunately the position was cancelled. Therefore we are not hiring a student. You have a great resume and you did a wonderful interview, you were my first choice. I hope you receive another offer soon.

Best regards,

Kamir"

I got this e-mail from the USDA on Tuesday. After 2 weeks of mind games, I guess I was right. It looks like I won't be interning in DC after all. I was really sad when I found out about this, and I just wanted to go home and have a good cry. But I didn't. I stayed at school and forced myself to do homework so that I wouldn't wallow.

I e-mailed the organization who sets up the internship interviews, and I asked them if there were any other openings they'd consider me for...

Some lady from San Antonio called me back yesterday. She said that she wants me to interview for an internship position with Sodexo. Apparently, they're the biggest food producer in the nation and they're the ones who feed hospitals and universities (bleh... i always thought that food was gross).

They have three positions available. One would be at a hospital in Modesto, California (about 1 1/2 hours from San Francisco) and the other two are at univeristies in Minnesota. Obviously, I said I was more interested in the California position but I wouldn't mind interviewing for any of the three.

i don't know. this whole summer-planning crap has been a roller coaster for me. I'm not as excited with these positions are I was with the DC one. I mean, living in California would be cool. But i don't know...
Why can't I just be a normal 20 year old girl and not give a damn?

I want to move away from Brownsville (yet the purpose and location are unknown)
I want to gain experience (in a field that I mostly don't like)
I want to be typical (but I love Jesus too much)

Anyways, I still have my plan B available. I signed up for that nasty Business Law II class, so I can graduate in December if I so choose.

God, give me clarity. Give me wisdon. Give me You.

Dude

I can't graduate in December...

Alright, let's start from the beginning.

Remember that whole DC internship thing? Well, it's been almost two weeks since they interviewed me and I still haven't heard from them, so I guess it's safe to say I didn't get it. You'd think that the USDA would at least send an "I'm sorry. you suck. maybe next time?" e-mail. Geez

Anyways, going on the big chance that I probably didn't get it, I referred to Plan B and signed up for summer classes. I need 27 hours to go, so I would take 9 in the summer and 18 in the fall.
Works out perfect, right?

Wrong

One class that I was planning on taking isn't being offered in the summer OR the fall. I could take another class instead but I effin' hate that class.
Dude, seriously, that class is gonna suck. It's Business Law II. You can start cringing now.

So what to do? What to do?
Do I wait and graduate in May with an easier course load?
or
Do I suck it up and just take the class?

I guess it all boils down to one question: "How badly do I want to graduate already?"

And to be honest, I don't know.

this makes me elated

thinking

I have a feeling I didn't get the internship.

hmm

i don't know how I know this, but I just have a gut feeling.

They still haven't e-mailed me,

and I'm pretty sure she said she'd reach me on Monday.

Oh well.

stuff

I had my interview for the Washington DC internship this Friday. Someone names Kamir Camarillo e-mailed me on Wednesday and I just assumed Kamir was a dude's name so I kept replying to them as a sir or mister. When they called on Friday, though, it turns out Kamir is a lady. Pretty sure she wasn't to appreciative of that slip up.

Anyways, I'd be working at the USDA Human Resources office. (FYI You know you're The Office obsessed when automatically you think, "Oh my gosh, I'm gonna be like Toby!") I know in my previous blog I said I'd most likely turn it down, but I'm seriously considering it now. If I got offered Austin would I still take that instead? Hell yeah! But if I don't, I'm pretty sure I'll still do the DC one.

• when else will i have an opportunity like this?
• they pay for everything
  
• it'll look good on a resume
• get some more "out of texas" exposure
• meet people from all over the country
• have a chance to get my mind off of some stuff

I find out tomorrow, i think. If not tomorrow then sometime this week for sure. I'd really miss being here for Victor's last pre-unt summer, but i'm planning a road trip to make it up to him. i can't wait.