A couple of weeks ago, someone suggested to me that I should go to a class on self-esteem. Up until that point, I thought my self-esteem was fine. I mean, granted, I don't think I'm absolutely fabulous but I don't think anyone really does.

I didn't know what to think when they brought that up. Should I be gracious and accept the offer? Should I be offended because they think I think I'm a loser? What do I think about myself? To be honest, I rather not think about myself so I kind of just blew this thing off and didn't go to the class.

Plus, a class on self-esteem? LAME

Anyways, someone called me a wallflower recently and I couldn't help but bring up the subject again in my head. When I replay events in my head, I don't necessarily see them as Sylvia being a loner - I think my personality is just kind of tame and observant. Also, if i'm meeting you for the first time, how can you expect me to full bloom? Dude, give it time. If I like you, then my true colors will eventually show - I guess I just have to warm up to the idea of you.

So if you see me quietly sitting, don't pity. It's just "me" coming out. Studying, listening, making mental notes (sometimes even mental jokes)... I don't know. I really do like myself most days, and that's all I'm really asking for anyways.

and for the record, the wallflowers were catchy - so i'll take it as a compliment.