Monday, February 23, 2009

rewarding patience

I feel like dancing. Like grabbing a stranger by the hand and dashing to the front of the stage!

I imagine my husband is going to compliment me so well.
With the electronica blasting in our speakers
and the distortion grinding our eardrums to dust
stumbling around looking for that perfect something
by golly,,,,, i'm in love with you, my little tornado
THE EYE OF THE STORM shall be mine
dressed in plaids and stripes and dots and dyes
our future will be amazing (!)
i'm going to save this post and read it on my wedding day
just so that he'll know that on Feb 23rd of 2009
sylvia was thinking
"damn,
you are so cool"
God, I want to meet him already!
not because i'm lonely or want to get married yet
BUT JUST BECAUSE I WANT TO DANCE

Thursday, February 19, 2009

go. now!

http://www.pitchforkmedia.com/article/download/149206-new-music-yeah-yeah-yeahs-zero-stream

you'll thank me later

i can't wait until they start touring for the new album :)

go with me to see them live!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

allegory

Let's see how stupid this sounds...

Alright, for the better part of the last two years I've been the turkey in the middle of two slices of bread. At first it was fun, but then one slice kind of let itself get moldy. So the sandwich became an Atkins sandwich. But then I, aka the turkey, realized that I couldn't breath those two years since I was stuck in the middle. And now that one bread was missing, I got a little taste of breathing and I now want to run away and become one of those lone turkey slices rolled up on the appetizer tray.

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so today, i had the pleasure of actually meeting someone i met over myspace in person. i felt like i was on a blind date - or worse, a match.com blind date. he was the dude who made the vinyls i posted.

it was an all around strange process. he gave me his phone number over a message and asked me to call him when i was out of class. i send him a couple of text messages throughout the morning, and when it came down to call him i got kind of nervous.

is that normal? that I was nervous? it's kind of like I wanted my voice to be cool, to sound pretty. he sounded effin' weird. i bet i sounded worse.

"Hey is this Erik? (duh, it would be erik. it's his number, sylvia.)
"yeah"
"hi, this is sylvia"
"yo"
"..." (umm, "yo"? really? ok)
"blah blah blah let's meet at Barnes?"
"well, i'm from san benito. i don't know where barnes is."
"Barnes? You know, Barnes. Barnes and Noble, on campus..."
"Oh! yeah, see ya there"

maybe he wanted to sound cool too and forgot about Barnes.
anyways, so walking towards someone you meet over myspace is weird because you are kind of sizing up the person to the picture (and you know they are too) so I just hid behind my sunglasses.

"Hey gangster. Whats up?"

I put out my hand to shake and he extends his arm to hug.
"We don't shake. We hug :)"
"oh uhh heh"

it was just funny. i kind of want to do that again - except not over myspace and not over match.com. Maybe a really good friend can set me up on a blind date. it's kind of a weird rush. i saw a blind date at starbucks with Lisa and we were laughing at them and hoping they would sit near us so we could keep laughing (discretely, of course). i allow you to laugh discretely at me.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I feel the late night Sunday blues settling in & sonic youth isn't really helping...
:sigh:
This weekend was the definition of bittersweet

SWEET
  • three-day weekend
  • i saw lisa :)))
  • little homework
  • two valentines
  • showed off a little creativity
  • felt non-stop l.u.v.
  • got my ass kicked
BITTER
  • really missing Christina and Samantha
  • 7 am wake ups
  • car died on me... again
  • transitioning (!)
  • family = puzzle
  • got my ass kicked
Overall, though, (+) outweighed (-).
I need to start a diary, or journal for the older folk. Don't wanna forget this kind of stuff.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day! I'm looking forward to it - I think it'll be a nice day. I have some thoughts on the day. Would you like to hear 'em? Alright, here it goes...

  • I've never been one of those girls who dislikes being single on the day. I actually kind of enjoy it. I like to sit back and see people in love. It brings out the hopeless romantic in me I guess.

  • Remember how in school you were a loser if you weren't carrying around a valentine's day present by the end of the day? That's funny, yet very age-appropriate. My mom would always drop off a bear with chocolates for each of us so we wouldn't feel left out. Now, I see it as my turn, so I like to buy her flowers. (her flowers are hiding in my closet)

  • I'm pretty sure the only Valentine I've ever had was Davy, and it's really funny thinking back on it. My junior year he bought me a bunny, so I had to walk around school with a huge cage, backpack, and Davy's freakin heavy arm around my shoulders all day. People would point at me and be like "woah, she got a bunny! that's cool!", so I felt kind of special... but now that I think about it that was definitely more of a present for himself than for me. He kind of walked in that "yeah, that's right. I'm a great boyfriend" smirk for the day.

  • Will always and forever be a flowers kind of girl, and the weirder the flower the better. I'm not into chocolates and my mom called dibs on giving me stuffed animals a long time ago.
I guess that's it. I feel like I just wrote an entry for Chicken Soup for the Soul.
Anyways, Happy Valentines Day :)

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

It must have been 3:00 am one night in Kansas City when I was woken up by these amazing beats coming from my radio. I forced myself to stay up and see if the dj would share the artist and track (i was convinced that it was floyd for some reason), but it turned out to be Bowie's "Fame". Good times.

anyways,

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I was never one to stare in the mirror too long. Being over-analytical leads to a focus on my flaws, but I wanted to look...

...I wanted to look nice.

I was definitely in the "going on a date" zone. I'm a girl - sue me. And with The Vandals' "I Have a Date" providing the soundtrack, it definitely wasn't hard to feel the way I felt.

My room: a mess with tried-on-but-just-doesn't-look-good-enough clothes all over the floor
The purse: contents spilled on the bed with my make-up dying to be used
&
The Vandals: well, they're on repeat

Is it love that I'm feeling, you ask? <3
Oh, shucks.
Of course it's not love. </3
What I'm feeling is merely the surprise of the unknown. :-0
The verge of something either completely great that will lead to a future of bliss, :D
something utterly horrendous that will make me scratch my head in disbelief in years to come, D:
or something that could just result in a yawning contest... :|

Either way... i'm ready
"it's our time"

:ding dong:
"Hey Jane. You look great."
"Thanks, you too."
"You ready?"
"Let's do this"
:shut door:
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I saw a girl and she drove me wild
She looked at me and I looked and smiled
The cutest girl you'd ever see
I never dreamed she'd go out with me

We met at school so I asked her out
The only girl I ever thought about
She's 16 and she's so devine
I never thought I could make her mine

I'm in love, I just can't wait Tonight I have a date
I have a date with the cutest girl in town
I have a date and I'm the happiest boy around
I'm in love. I just can't wait 'cause tonight I have a date

Went to the movies in my parents car
I never dreamed I'd get that far
I picked her up at a quarter to eight
I got there early I didn't want to be late

I never thought it would come to this
I drove her home and she gave me a kiss
I'm in love and it's here to stay
She said she really wants to see me again

I'm in love, I just can't wait Tonight I have a date
I have a date with the cutest girl in town
I have a date and I'm the happiest boy around
I'm in love. I just can't wait 'cause tonight
I have a date